Working for employment

People, they mightn't have the patient space, much like nature's temper doesn't seek to understand the hardships you've gone through. I'm not sure, I think there's something to be said about this strange year. A tropical escape can either be a luxe vacation or wet air so hard to swallow. I'm always battling that insecurity. I want to be understood.

we all have scars

every day, i try so hard.

I wonder how many times you have to hate, before being liberated because did you realize that even out in love is still being held captive against your own will. What kind of asshole leaves you in attentive absence? A dicktator. 

Trickling brain drops soft spots

Quick, call flora,
crybabies and cry ladies.
an amused muse for flowers
bloom every season
regardless of rain or shine.

calm this calf. calm my halves. My haves
and my loves me, loves me nots.
Petal by petal. As rose as my cheeks.

I want to ride my bicycle. I want to ride my bike.

oh my god, i just read below and it dawned on me all i did was paraphrase "sweet dreams," 

so there's that. 

loves a pressure

there are sides to every story, sometimes you're never the same. its about borrowing things never to be returned again. its about going down a path  without your gps guiding your lefts from your rights. I've left you're right. i write about theft. and where do you take your collected sorrows for a cash in, a lump sum in my throat of pieces i won't give away. 

artifacts found along the way,

never have i ever

been so scared, i shut down
thicker than the berlin wall,
never have i ever
would you rathers, counted
"time is an illusion,"
but i feel it. i really fucking feel it.

que paso, ari? what now? where to?
hypnotized by, "one day at a time,"
I'm lucky to be alive, aren't i?

love is cruel. when i broke
in front of my mother,
she gave me
an unrecognizable look, "and where is your eternal optimist? where have
you lost her"